Monday, July 23, 2012

Colorado, my heart, my home, my haven.

When I started this blog a couple months ago I truly had the best of intentions to post at least a couple times a week.  Posts about fun, light hearted things. Things like diy tutorials, recipes, and other subjects that although simple, make me smile.  My goal was to share the simple things in life with others out there in the blog world. A pure and simple idea.

However this summer has unfolded in a way I would never have imagined. That is because I live in Colorado. And as many of you know our state has seen much heartache these last 4 weeks. This saddens me deep down to my core because Colorado is the one and only place I have ever called home. This state has become my safe haven, a place where I can proudly say I am from. You see I grew up an Air Force Brat and I was beyond fortunate to have grown up all over...literally all over! Then I married a soldier in the Army. But it wasn't until we got stationed here in Colorado that I felt as if I was home.  After living here for 10 years, it has become the place not only where I have lived the longest but the place where I truly feel I belong.


When the Waldo Canyon Fire broke out about 3 weeks ago I had a difficult time processing what was happening.  Part of me was grieving, watching a place where I call home go up in flames and burn hundreds of homes, there are no words for how gut wrenching this was to watch. I felt helpless. Completely and utterly helpless. 

Part of me was a on edge, smelling the smoke from the fires, seeing the ash fall in our neighborhood, wondering if we will have to start packing and evacuate, it was definitely unnerving.  Then part of me was saddened by the fact that our military neighbors at the Air Force Academy had to evacuate, not knowing if they would have anything to return to.  Then part of me was proud, proud knowing our Army post was helping those affected by setting up temporary shelters, donating their time, donating items, basically doing anything and everything they could to help. I was also proud of our community for pulling together and showing support for our courageous firefighters.

But there was also a part of me that was mad. Mad at how this could happen. Mad at myself for feeling all these different emotions.  I'm normally a calm and collect person. In fact I rarely cry. But this fire had me crying, almost everyday, for 2 weeks straight! I just wanted the fire to stop and I wanted everyone to have a home to go back to. Then after a few more days things started looking up, the fire was now 100% contained, and our city was getting excited about rebuilding.

Then just a couple of days ago the tragedy in Aurora took place.  I wish I could put into words how I feel about this but I can't.  I simply can't begin to describe how devastating this is.  Summer is suppose to be about spending time with friends and family. Summer is a time to escape from school, to go on vacation, to relax, and regroup.  But this summer has been full of heartache.  My heart breaks for the victims and their families of this senseless crime. It's devastating and unimaginable.  Every human should have the right to feel safe, no matter where they go or what they do and this is especially true for those that live in the United States of America.

So please bare with me these next few days as I try to cope with everything that has happened.  I absolutely plan to post more uplifting, light hearted, and fun type projects but for now I just can't seem to click "publish" on those.  At least not yet. All I ask is if you pray, please pray for those affected by these tragedies.  And if you don't pray please send positive thoughts to the victims and their families. Please keep Colorado in your thoughts and prayers and we will keep you in ours.

2 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry Erika. Praynig for you and everything going on in Colorado.

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  2. Thank you Christy. It feels so calming to put my thoughts and feelings into words. Obviously it doesn't solve everything put it does make me feel much more at ease. And thank you oh so much for your thoughts and prayers :) They are beyond appreciated.

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